Mon, 22 May 2006 05:17:52 +0800 (PHT)
i gotta be tough. only if you knew that i felt so weak when you told me
that when you walk out the door will be on our separate ways. so hard
to
move on specially if you had missed so much before you let go of that
special person.
only if i could turn back time just simply shut up and avoid the
emptiness
right now. my apology for all the messy stuff i brought into your
midst.
im sorry if i was so selfish and didn’t let you go the first time you
ask
for your freedom. im sorry if i keep on trying to fixed and patch
things
up to make it work between us. but i can feel that you are so fed up
and
had too much of everything.
if only i can stay and be the girl who can match you up. ill stay but
you
prefer me to go and let you handle your road towards your dream. ill
just
stare at you see you as you reach for the stars.
you told me you’ll be back.. you told me it will be soon.. i can’t
respond
nor even give reaction to it because i love you so much and i wanted to
keep my word and not bother you nor pressure you from your decision. it
is
so hard to stay but it is much more harder to let go but if that will
depicts my real intention and level of love for you then ill let this
air
fills the emptiness and tears flows down.
can let go of the thought and dreams a little girl once built. it will
remains a beautiful dream and a dream you’ll just love to go back over
and
over.
as i am tryin to pour out all my emotions on this blog. i never ever
wanted to hurt someone you love most and if loving means that i have to
be
away and let you go.. then ill be gone.
ill be okey and good. ill do my best to be the girl you wanted me to
be.
you’ll be proud of me and once they ask who i am. that was the girl i
molded to be what she is right now. the girl who once loved you with
all
her heart and is willing to go places just to be with you and willing
to
put it off and be gone just to see you happy.
ill always be your chimchim, ill always be the maasim na kilikili
you’ll
crave for. ill always be your little girl who is so proud of you.
having
you. being with you and loving you.
till we meet again.
Lots of Love and Care
