To You
I know you’ve been hurt. I know exactly how it feels. If you only knew me as well, you will never think that I might just be a bratty selfish girl. I know how difficult it is and painful it could be. Trust me. I wasn’t fooled once nor twice and it was all made of the man I have loved most.
I always think of others and love them first before myself. I tried to be as good as I could be.. but my fate is trying to test me. How far can I go and how long can I bare it all? I never felt the real happiness, it was all pain. And the hardest part is, I didn’t do anything. Took all the blame and carry all the burden on my own.
I don’t deserve such treatment, nobody does, but life is very unpredictable, playful and tricky. It would never give you a clue or two if your going to be at a loosing end. Win or loose, we still get hurt, right. Honestly there is no winner nor loser. We are just but playin and gamblin our hearts to get hurt. It is the excitement and thrill it brought us that drive us to go on and still play the game of life. It is our choice, our cards, our risk, our hearts.
I am also a simple girl who dreamt of real happiness. If you look at my heart right now. It is hollow. Empty. Bleeding. Full of pain. But at the corner was a small hope for happiness to revive it all.
To you, I know how you feel. I know because I was in your situation before. Same case. They are now married and expecting their child by the end of October. But I was you before, I didn’t know as well, I was hurt but it was the kid that I thought of and I thank you for doing the same thing for my little angel. You didn’t do it for me. Because both of us were wounded, you did it for my angel and I can’t thank you enough for that.
Till then. You’ll be treasured but not blamed nor condemned. I am sorry.
Thank you.
~ Geraldine ~
