A Different Love Story
new life
august 26, 2007 … sunday…. family day and my son’s 4th month birthdate…
this day marks a new beginning for a life I never thought I’ll have..
2006 brought me nothing but hell. I got into different twist and spice of life and got caught up into a mess I never imagined I’ll go through. I died. I was dead and cooked by life. I was bitter. I dwell on the pain that torn me into bits of pieces.
2007 came.. great deals of confrontation and loss all the hopes for a better life. Trust was whacked and relationship falls apart. The mark of a total downfall.
My son was born and he saved everything but I am so stupid dwelling in my past that I drove my beau away. Now I suffered from a blinding reality that we were just good friends.
We were the worst lovers then. We always argue, don’t know how to compromise, selfish, insensitive with each other’s feelings and simply don’t click. We thought we didn’t match and weren’t compatible for each other.
Now that we became good friends, we’ve realized how we compliment each other and how we greatly work as a tag team/ tandem. We never thought we could be so honest and sincere with how we care for each other. Love didn’t die at all. We thought it was swept away by the test of time. But the love and feelings were rekindled. The spark was relighted.
The warmth of our hugs was renewed. The joy of each other’s company was brought to a better level. Now I am so happy with how things work for us.
I am sorry for the things I used to say and do. I am sorry for dwelling on our past and too much anticipation for tomorrow. I lost control. Now all I am focused on is our family… caleb… caleb and caleb alone….
He is our bond.. our life and he brought us back in course. In the right path. We made so many mistakes. We fall so many times. We fail on each big decision that came up but we stand tall and held hands. We faced all the storms together. We’ve weathered out bad and unforseen events. We were strong when we have each other and work side by side.
Now, I am focus on today. No more past to dwell on, no more happy ever after ending to anticipate, no more hang ups. But rather a more light and real life to look forward to.
I am so happy and contented. Thanks for the most unforgettable week I ever had.
My smile is real. My heart for once was happy. My mind was at peace.
This is the life. This is what I’ve wanted.
