miel desde circa 83

There were times when you feel like the forces of nature was up against you. You thought things were under control then all of a sudden there will be a swift turn of events that will force you to make a life-changing decision and will bring upon a realization that you were a big disappointment. I have this concept of unfulfilled dreams and a big "F".

Failure. Yes, I’m a big failure. When I visit my life’s checklist: happiness and contentment was crossed out; factors considered were career, love life, family and social life.

If you could read my mind, you’ll fall into a deep dark pit. It’s a complete empty void surrounded by darkness. Gruesome and shallow thoughts, but that’s my so called reality.

I dreamt of happiness and contentment just like any ordinary girl does. A life full of love shared with her own knight. But on the contrary, I woke up and walk into a life full of deception, lies and pain. Wounded, shattered and blamed.

Am I considered "ingrata" because I’m ignoring the good things that I got and I focused on something that I wanted to have.

We tend to forget that happiness doesn’t come as a result of getting something we don’t have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have.

There is no end of craving. Hence contentment alone is the best way to happiness. Therefore, acquire contentment.

How could I? Good question? Mind boggling? Pop quiz? or simply an imponderable thought?

Contentment is a neuro-physiological experience of satisfaction and being at ease in one’s situation, body, and/or mind. A degree of happiness and satisfaction. In short we create that state. We form the concept and idea of what we want. We set our expectation. We make our own destiny. We create our own state of contentment.

But human are set to be unsatisfied. We wish for more. We ask too much. We ignore what we already got because we focus on what we lack.

Easy for me to declare, difficult to make it my reality.

I still live in the dreamland and concept of perfection.

Now I am desperately seeking for the real contentment and happiness that I got and not what I want.

Rebuilding my dreams, filling up the empty spaces, voiding all the unnecessary negative thoughts, giving up too much expectation.

Focus on one good gift that was left…. Caleb Miguel…..

His smile deflects my happiness. His satisfaction conclude my contentment. Hence, I am most "content".

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