miel desde circa 83

I was on my way home from one hell of a ride at work and pass by my Ney’s office place then I thought he’s on his way home too.

I continue walking and reach the bus stop. I didn’t bother text him for he might be finishing up some task. After awhile I got a cab that took me to the terminal on route to Pacita. I got on the bus and fell asleep. Regular routine after work.

The next thing I know I was at the bus last stop and I few streets away from home.

I heard my mom calling my attention. Everybody’s home. But not Mickey. Oh.. it might be a traffic jam that caught him or maybe a report he needs to finish with Claudine. I fell asleep remember. So I don’t know if there was a traffic that slows down and prolong his travel time.

I waited. It is already pass 3 and he’s not yet home. I got aggrevated and call him up. There was a loud noise in the background. Laughing and teasing him.

Upon hearing this annoying sounds I asked him where he was? He still got work. Why he’s not home yet? He intentionally cut off the line.

That made me so mad.. I keep on calling him until finally around 6 o’clock he picked up the phone and answered. I overheard a gay voice asking for a light for his cigar. It sounds like their having a beer session and most widely known “team building” in our world. This made me shout on top of my voice and blurted out. He got mad and just simply ignored each question I threw at him. I caught everybody’s attention. I was ashamed. I shouldn’t have. My family will be mad at him and it will be difficult for him to retrieve their amoure again.

I tried to tone down my voice and whisper but Mickey couldn’t stop annoying me and pushed me to the limits. I asked him directly if he was with someone new? A new girl fling? A girlfriend? A bitch? A FUBU?

To my surprise he responded and advise me, they’re just starting to get to know each other. Somewhat on a courting stage.

I fell down on my knees. I couldn’t utter any words. It’s a mixture of too much angst and anger.

I was depressed I hung up.

I run on my son’s room and picked him up. I was thinking of running away from his father.

Then I stopped. My heart was so weak and up until that last minute.. I still love Mickey. After all the deception.

I cried and just hugged Caleb so tight. He kissed me back and made me feel he understand and will be there for me. Then I opened up my eyes…. my son’s kissing me and all over me..  it was just a dream.. Thank God. I never thought it will come this far. Too much negativity on my mind causes these random haywire thoughts to poison my principle and have a blurry vision for tomorrow.

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