lost…
He, who loses money, loses much;
He, who loses a friend, loses much more;
He, who loses faith, loses all.
He, who loses a friend, loses much more;
He, who loses faith, loses all.
I lost big bucks and career oppurtunity. My dreams was stolen when I have to stand and make a decision that is supposedly right. Making the right decision and choices doesn’t mean it will bring you happiness and contentment.
I lost my best friend and family… now it feels like the end of everything… I am a failure and brought disappoint to my clan. Now I couldn’t turn back the hands of time to make things right. All my life I wanted to do the right thing.. the best choices but I always ended up on the loosing end. I wanted to have a little not to perfect life. I wanted to please my mom, dad, and two other siblings. I was unsuccessful. I always panic when things turn out to be not working the way I forecasted it and projected it to be.
I plan too much. I focus on being ubberly organized. I left small things out or maybe I prioritize things incorrectly.
Wrong choice. Wrong step. Wrong decision. Wrong reaction. Wrong burst of emotion. Everything is WRONG when all you wanted to do is RIGHT.
I definitely lost my faith. I can’t even stand up on my own now. I am so weak. I am crying my heart out for affection, understanding and help. I am such a failure. A Loser at loose.
I am so LOST….. space is growing between me and my loved ones. The goal of driving them together turns out to be pushing them apart. Now, I am breathing on a void empty space. I’m all alone. I need to go back. I need to be back. But I am not deserving to be Caleb’s mom not until I have completely fixed my own troubled heart. Dad, if you can hear me and I know you are guiding me… could you help me lighten up a bit. I don’t trust myself on the next step I’ll be taking from here.
